Dear Self Doubt,
A few years back I read this by Ashley@Nourishing the Soul - I loved it and still do love it! Challenged with anything in your life, take a minute to READ! I often do!
You and I are so over. I know that you’ve known we’ve been on the rocks for a while, but it’s finally time to pony up and get off the pot (do you like the mixed metaphor?).
I think I’ve known you’ve been holding me back for a while. In the beginning, I was so hooked into you. Co-dependent really. I’d try to venture out on my own, assert my independence, and you would just show up! I never invited you. You just took it upon yourself to bring your sorry butt along.
Well, I’m tired of uninvited guests. Sometimes, I just want to be by myself. Or I want to be able to hang out with my friends without you distracting me. You’ve always been too possessive. For a long time, I thought I could keep you around and just see you on occasion. But I’m realizing that our relationship just doesn’t work like that. When we’re together, you seem to have all of me and I can’t even think straight. I get so caught into what you are telling me that my own voice is drowned out.
I just can’t go on like this. There’s too much that I want to do. I want to learn to sing (no, like really sing). You always told me my voice was like nails on a chalkboard. Well, that’s crap. I want to write a book. You always told me that there’s no way to get published in this day and age. I call your bluff. I want to walk confidently into any room. You told me that I should look at the floor and avoid eye contact. How could I have listened to you!
I know it sounds cliché, but I’m sure that you’ll find someone much better suited for you. Someone who doesn’t realize what an amazing woman she is. Someone who needs you more than I do and can be as attached to you as you are to me.
Me? I’ll be okay. I’m ready for this change. I might grieve a little – I mean, you’ve been a pretty big part of my life for a while – but I’ll be just fine in the end. In fact, I have no doubt. Love, Me ~ By Ashley@Nourish The Soul
Remember shutting out the noise of the self-doubt gremlin voices can be quite a feat. Learn to trust yourself and GO FOR WHATEVER IT IS YOU DESIRE!
Sending you an ABUNDANCE of HUGS!